SPIN bang-bang.

START ANEW.

2010-07-25T20:27:00.002+08:00

MOVED!

JUNE

2009-06-03T08:53:00.003+08:00

I have to update this piece o' obligation, I need to do a lot of updating. I think this is considered cramming? I dunno. God, I cleared my tagbox of spam post about money-shit and other crap. I guess a lot of people already deleted me from their bloglist or something.

I badly want to get my life back. I died and resurrected, but I woke up in the online-gaming world, and now I can't even get myself out of there. I'm not regretting it, I just wished I knew how to balance things. I'm bound by the wonderful people I met there, the forum and the game itself. The game is effing addicting, and I forgot the real world. It was the first time I actually missed getting headaches from the blaring heat, doing nothing because I'm stuck at home and thinking I'm the lamest person ever 'cause I don't have a social life.

I just sneaked in and took a peek of the real world again last week. I think I never saw the daylight until our trip to Vigan. 3 days away from my laptop made me realize I've missed a lot of things during my summer break. Remember my post about "how I want to spend my summer break"? Well just to refresh you:

Explore Binondo, Quiapo and other legendary spots in Manila on my own. It doesn't matter if I get lost as long as I know the right way. Quite confusing right?
TRAVEL to the regions of the Philippines and witness the sunset and the sunrise in wonderful landscapes.
SHOOT alone, with friends, with groups, with anyone. As long as I could do and enjoy what I love.
I bought this 200peso notebook with blank white pages without knowing what I could use it for. I hope to fill it up with memories, quotes, doodles and pictures.
Master the art of DOODLING. I suck at drawing, this could do.

I'm ashamed of myself I haven't even done a single thing out of that list. And now it's already June, too late I guess.

Hope everyone had a great summer though. Post those pictures!

HELLO THERE.

2009-05-22T09:34:00.001+08:00

Sorry for the lack of updates.

I'm a bit busy and I have to sort some RL things at the moment. *sigh* Hope to see you all soon.

Oh Hey There, April!

2009-04-02T07:27:00.002+08:00

So I've been gone from the blogosphere for about 2 weeks max. Not much happened since I shunted myself from the real-world these past 2 weeks, thank you Pet Society and your addicting game and items. Again, nothing much happened but still things have happened and my life has taken quite an unexpected turn. Not 360 degrees, more of like 45 or something.

From March 23 - 27, I spent the week at La Union. My mom dragged me there to let me at least experience my so-called "pre-summer classes break". I hate long bus trips, shoot. I hate stiff seats at buses, shoot. I hate Partas' economy buses, period. Anyhoo, at least I got to see the sun there, eat real human food, got to the beach, practiced photography, and visited 3 towns in Region 1 in 1 day. I kind of love my mom's job. Well not the job itself but I love the fact that she's assigned to different places almost 2 times a year. Plus the team buildings, seminar, etc., etc. She's almost visited all the places in the Philippines! That's a life-long goal for me, which in my mom's case is almost complete. And just to partake in the journey she's having with all these trips, I make sure she buys me keychains from all of these places. So I think it's okay to say I have a hefty collection of keychains here from all over the Philippines.

Don't you love Starbucks' Caramel Mocchiato? I do, and I usually die and ressurect and then die again when having a cup of this. It's a common coffee drink among Starbucks lovers, but it will always be my all-time favorite when it comes to hot drinks. And oh, do try drinking it after heavy meals, OHGOD! It's heavenly.

I have megabytes and megabytes of pictures stored on my memory card from the La Union trip plus some never before seen "shoots" from my last trip to Bicol. Will try to upload them when inspiration calls me and when I learn some new post-processing techs.

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I'm too lazy to make another layout for the blog. I'm in desperate need for inspiration again.
ENJOY YOUR SUMMER BREAK PEOPLE!

Errr, Summer?

2009-03-20T20:26:00.002+08:00

Pauline Yu

Guess what? What? I ran out of things to write again. Okay, you know that thing that happens to everybody? "Blogger's-block-but-not-really-blogger's-block" syndrome. You have so many things you want to write about while you're doing something else, but when you face your laptop, the only thing you can do is stare at the blinking cursor of destiny. I think I've explained this "thing" for the nth time already. Though, my tumblr career is flourishing, or maybe not. But I usually hang out there to get inspiration from awesome people. You could spare me a visit and follow me. You may notice my unending love for rounded corners, amateur headers and my new found love for Cory Aquino's color, you what it is.

Next thing to be pimped out is this blog's layout. It's a blast hearing from people that the layout looks nice and clean but it's getting a bit boring for me. I want to go all minimalistic again and drop the legendary yellow/blue combination. As it gets older, it gets uglier. So a new layout might welcome you the next time you visit.

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Summer is here. Yay? Summer for me is usually boring. I'm left home alone with our housemaid who, by the way, I call Donya Inday for some undisclosed reasons. I'm left homealone to wallow on the fact that I'll be stuck here with basic commodities and no allowance money. It's just the second day of our pre-summer classes break and I'm already bored to death. But I am proud to say that I've been quite productive these past two days. I cleaned my room, clutter-free, ladies and gents. I've finally decided to print pictures and post it on my bedroom wall, thanks to Blutac and Poladroid.

I have plans, of course, on how to spend the break. I'm still working on my list as of now but here are some snippets:

Explore Binondo, Quiapo and other legendary spots in Manila on my own. It doesn't matter if I get lost as long as I know the right way. Quite confusing right?
TRAVEL to the regions of the Philippines and witness the sunset and the sunrise in wonderful landscapes.
SHOOT alone, with friends, with groups, with anyone. As long as I could do and enjoy what I love.
I bought this 200peso notebook with blank white pages without knowing what I could use it for. I hope to fill it up with memories, quotes, doodles and pictures.
Master the art of DOODLING. I suck at drawing, this could do.

Happy Summer!

Hop!

2009-03-17T19:14:00.002+08:00

Just a quick blog. School break will be the day after tomorrow. Let's rephrase that. Uni will end tomorrow and I'm so thrilled to tell you that! We will be having our comprehensive exams tomorrow for the completion of our curriculum. I haven't opened my notes. No it's not procrastination but the want to NOT study. Finally I'll be able to focus on everything but school.

I promised myself: I sure will make myself productive during the summer break.

PS. A poorly constructed entry, my thoughts are on summer mode already.

Profundity

2009-03-14T08:27:00.002+08:00

I've been loosing the motivation to do something exciting in my life. My 2009 start isn't a great one, these past 2 months aren't too much of an improvement. I guess this is the point where I'm going downhill and I'm ready to fall to the grave I dug myself.

Lack of inspiration might be the reason why I'm feeling lethargic. I'm disappointed with myself because I'm becoming less productive as the days add on. I don't have the motivation to learn anymore. I always fail, and the problem with me is I give up easily. This where the "frustrated artist" title comes in. Doing your hobby is supposed to be FUN and you're not supposed to feel any pressure from it. But my strive to become "almost perfect" is robbing my sanity.

I hope when summer comes I'll be able to sit still and think. At least think of ways on how to get rid of this "thing" I'm going through.

PS. I got the title from JOHNINE's blog entry.

Wake Up Pauline

2009-03-07T07:15:00.005+08:00

Uni work is taking it's stall on me. I'm having a hard time coping up with what is being thrown at me. My personal life isn't doing too well also. This week is such a pain in the ass. We've had unit exams for 3 concepts, 2 delayed reporting, various numbers of quizzes, a very stressful health center duty (plus a toxic CI) and a project queued for viewing this coming Tuesday. Oh and the ever useless research panel interview. In other words, I'm hating my life right now.

I'm tired physically and emotionally and my pessimism is towering over me again. I've had on and off fights with my ex-boyfriend-slash-special friend, I'm having a hard time figuring out myself. Personal and school issues got mixed up again. It's that time in a sem where everybody's working their asses off and I'm just here sitting and wondering what to do with my life.

I need to renew myself and wake up from the sadness I'm submitting myself into.

It's the revalida tomorrow and I need to study well. 10% is big enough to make me fail my course, especially right now that I'm not confident with my concept and RLE grades.

Quiapo Awakening

2009-02-23T23:05:00.002+08:00

Well I thought I was going to edit videos all day. Thank God I "made aya" my lola to the ever confusing Quiapo. I usually liked going alone to place unfamiliar to me, but Quiapo is one place I never dreamt of getting lost in. My lola is the best when it comes to pasikot-sikots around Manila. Despite her 3 year stay in Bahamas & Florida, and her long stay in Legazpi, she still remembers her way around here. Let's give my lola a big YAY shall we? YAY!

So, this is the best day of 2009 so far. A day full of analog love and old-school Manila. I went to Hidalgo (yay!) to get my newly acquired, 2nd hand SLR fixed. Kuya Mike of Vedicnation sold the Ricoh KR-10 X for 1k 'cause it has a defect, the film advance lever is stuck. But when I brought it to Mang Dong's, the manong who isn't Mang Dong told me there was no defect. So he pseudo-fixed it for free. But I swear it has a defect, I checked it myself. Ohwell. I also spent a hefty amount on Solid Gold and Lucky films for trial rolls. I have the Rolleimat and this Ricoh yet to be tested!

I'm planning to do my Project 365 on a single roll of film. Armed with VEE and roll of Lucky, I might pursue this idea for the month of March. Or maybe not. Maybe on April when it's summer and I'll be able to go on trips. Whatever ohwell papel.

Go Analog all you digital rebels! Embrace film!

Tama Ka, Friend.

2009-02-21T18:29:00.002+08:00

tagalog post, yikes!

Mga bandang 6:15 nabuksan ni Yatch ang usapang "gender wars" habang nagbabantay kami ng kapapanganak pa lang na pasyente.
YATCH: Ang tagal itahi noh?
AKO: Kaya nga.
YATCH: Ang hirap naman maging babae, grabe tingnan mo yung hirap ni nanay.
AKO: Buti ka pa nga lalake ka eh.
YATCH: Ou, at ikaw babae. Every month may masakit sainyo, masakit pag gumawa ng baby, masakit rin pag manganganak kayo.
AKO: Ang galing, buti ka pa na-realize mo yang bagay na yan.

Tama nga naman ang friend at seatmate kong si Yatch. Mahirap talaga maging babae. Masasabi ko na rin na ang mga babae eh designed maging shock-absorbers, yung tipong matatakbuhan mo pag wasak na wasak na ang mundo mo. Tingnan nyo ang mga nanay nyo, diba sila ang laging sumasalo satin kahit anong gaawin natin? Malakas din ang pain tolerance ng isang babae kung kukwentahin sa buong pagkabuhay niya sa mundong ibabaw. Uulitin ko lang sinabi ni Yatch. Every month may masakit dahil sa dalaw. Pag gumawa ng baby masakit rin. Pag nanganak, isang paa nasa hukay na, puspusang pag-ire, dinudugo at sobrang nasasaktan. Yun eh maliban na lang kung nagpa CS si nanay. Idadagdag ko pa jan ang sakit ng ulo pagdating sa mga asawang pasaway at sa mga anak na hindi na malaman kung galing sa impyerno o nasa "rebellious stage" lang.

Mas naiintindihan ko na kung ano ang hirap na dinaranas ng nanay ko sa pagpapalaki saming 2 pasaway nyang anak. Kaso nagpa-CS siya kaya easy lang ako ilabas kahit sobra na ako sa buwan, heehee. Iritable ako, kagaya lang ng nanay ko. Alam nya rin na yun ang talagang namana ko sa kanya. Pero madalas ako maging demonyong anak at laging iritable pag dating sa mga tanong nya. Na-realize ko na, mahirap akong maging anak. (Halakhak) Pero mahal ko nanay ko kasi hindi nya ko pinapalayas kahit minsan pasaway ako. (Halakhak ulit)

Hindi ko alam kung bakit naisip kong gawin tong post na 'to. Siguro masyado lang overwhelming ang pagdduty ko sa lying-in. Ebidensya 'to na hindi lang puro skills ang natutunan ko sa duty na 'to, kundi "life-realizations" kumbaga.

Sana kayo, dumating rin ang oras, kahit hindi Mother's Day eh marealize nyo kung ano ang pinagdaanan ng mga nanay nyo para "iluwa" kayo sa mundong ibabaw. Pasalamat kayo, sumigaw ng "TENKYUUUUU MAAAAAAA!" at bigyan siya ng isang malupet at makapigil-hiningang yakap.

Ayiieee.

♥♥♥

2009-02-14T21:26:00.008+08:00

HAPPY ♥'s DAY!
I hope you had fun with your loved ones. It doesn't necessarily mean your other-half and your boyfriends/girlfriends, family and friends would do.

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I enjoyed my day as it is. Another year celebrating Vday as a normal day, it's all good. It's all in the power of being optimistic. I didn't make being single such a big deal 'cause I know that IT will ruin my day. Though, the day started a little rough 'cause someone tried to ruin my day by arguing with me. Such a so-so day. I didn't go out because I don't like to see couples frolicking around. Bitter?. NO, just my defense mechanism.

Anyway, enjoy the remaining hours of Valentines. I wonder, _{puno nanaman ata ang Sogo ngayon...}

B&W

2009-02-11T10:09:00.004+08:00

(We are just shadows)
Crawling through this microalley

Let's try something new shall we?
This is my first try with ETHAN.'s B&W mode, which I've never explored before.
It's nice to try something new every now and then, right?

Pauline Yu
Post-processed

JANUARY 2009

2009-02-01T15:22:00.004+08:00

ACCOMPLISHED.
(hiii-ya! )

Here's a little idea I thought of just now. How 'bout every end of the month (or maybe the first day of the next month) I post things I've accomplished or things that I'm proud of that I've done. Ok, too many run-on sentences there, but hey, let's start with January shall we?

I got to know my beloved group68 more. I'm happy to say that we've grown closer as the duty days add on. Wala nang tahimik, lahat pinakita na ang tunay na kulay.
I've had the realization that my attitude towards schoolwork won't help me achieve the personal status I am aiming for my academics. Studying is as important as playing.
I've been independent these past few weeks, and I'm becoming proud of myself for doing things on my own. I have the sense of freedom overwhelming me again. It's a though job, but hey, at least I'm learning.
I rode the LRT2 line on my own! I'm starting to like travelling to far places on my own. Commuting, finding my way around is much better than taking the cab and pointing the directions.
The 4 rolls of 110 film I sent to digiprint has all been exposed properly. The 135 didn't do so well. I've got a lot to learn in film photography.
I've learned to be patient. Something this month made me sit for hours in one place. It gave me time to contemplate on things.

(HOPE YOU HAD AN AWESOME JANUARY)

_{Just a little something from my PROJECT 365.
JANUARY IN PICTURES}

Yes We Can

2009-01-29T07:36:00.004+08:00

Let's get a bit political here.

Since the politics in the Philippines is much worse as it can get, let's cross-over and applaud the inaguration of the new US president, Barack Obama. I AM a supporter of Mr. Obama, a democratic who strongly strives for CHANGE.

By far, Obama had the BEST campaign among all them presidents. Maybe I became a suporter because of these campaigns or maybe I just saw the want in him to bring change to the country. This is the first time I saw a large amount of the youngsters actually participating in politics. Obama's campaign was very appealing to the youth, the posters, the viral videos, etc. That's why he became everyone's word of the mouth.

This song is on my favorites list. I hope it could be on yours too.

Yes Mr. President, We Can.

headlights on dark roads

2009-01-25T21:28:00.006+08:00

Headlights, before me
So beautiful, so clear
(Reach out and take it)

A few thousand takes

2009-01-25T07:07:00.004+08:00

I failed on posting a photodump last night. I admit, I forgot that I had classes on a non-school day, thanks to the wonderful powers of uni admins. Though, I could've done the posting last night but I was too tired to do so. Uni, again, drained my magical ability of being active in the online world

I see that a quite a number of people commented on the PNDY sig. All the credit goes to the wonderful DannyB. (though I think it's a total rip-off of his design, SORRY).

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I'm a person who gets easily discouraged. I don't know how or why, it's not so dominant on our gene pool.

This Friday I got my package from Digiprint, the 5 rolls of film that I subjected to my own personal humiliation. Flabbergasted was I, but after a few minutes of looking at the sets, sadness suddenly knocked on my door. I was happy that the 4 rolls of 110 film was exposed properly (yes, I finally learned about exposure) but the subjects were so empty. It's like I wasted 4 rolls of film on taking pictures of clouds and other random objects which aren't very interesting. I made up an alibi so the hopeful hobbyist in me won't die, "You're just a starter. You are learning about what you love. Concepts may come in later." But I think that is a wrong reason. Along with learning about something, you should also have the passion to put it into heart. In this case, along with learning photography, you should also start learning the different aspects, angles and you should start thinking about concepts that is of your interest.

You're wondering now about the 5th roll of film.. The 35mm film didn't make it, out of 36 shots only 21 shots came out. Overexposure or underexposure, you get the idea.

So, will I give up film photography? A Big NO. It's something that is need to be learned. A person once said, "After a few thousand takes, that's when you suddenly realize that you're learning, and you're improving." I might give it a rest and resort to digital once again, I need some trial and error in my life.

Analog Photography will always have my heart. Someday, I'll master it too.

ETHAN. farted

2009-01-23T20:21:00.010+08:00

GET READY FOR A PHOTO DUMP TOMORROW.
That's all. Thank you.

_{OH, and do you like this? --->}

I hate schoolwork

2009-01-21T22:43:00.004+08:00

Rest is no longer a familiar word. It's my rest day today, but I still did a lot of running around the Blumentritt area. I pre-set my body for the activities today. I did everything on my to-do list for the first time in months. Yes, I'm happy, but damnit, I'm really tired.

Tomorrow, augh, tomorrow I will go to school again for our 3-pm eLearning. I didn't attend the last 2 sesssions 'cause of laziness. I promised myself to attend the next class, so here I am forcing myself to go there. Oh, I just remembered I have a reason to go to school early, case presentation research time!

I hate schoolwork.

_{short post. bleh.}

BREAK

2009-01-18T08:35:00.004+08:00

TAKE A REST! I've been telling myself that eversince the start of this week. I've never felt this stressed. School work took it's toll on me. Before the start of this week, I was quite badly ill. I had this weird reaction from some well-known drug I took for my cough. So allergies + colds + cough + crazy loads of school work = hell week. I still feel tired. I feel that I should sleep all day to make up for the sleeping hours I lost this week. I slept 3hours top everyday since Monday. *sigh* I'm still tired. To simply put it, I've officially lost my social life.

My desktop PC/wrecked-monitor laptop bailed out on me last Tuesday. Mom's laptop needed to get back to work, so I was left with the "desktop PC/wrecked-monitor laptop". Since I can't live without any kind of technology in one day, I decided to take a peek, for the music and memories of course. I plugged in the AVR and BOOM! the AVR failed and the real PC monitor got busted. And that's the story how I don't have my own computer anymore. The laptop that served as "teh CPU" still works, but the monitor unfortunately rested in peace.

I was on download spree last night. Since I can't access my files on the other laptop, I have to download some music that makes me feel "at home", if you know what I mean. I can't work with any music playing. It masks out the defeaning silence and makes me all hyped while working.

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I don't know if I stil have any stories and pictures to show and tell you. It's just that so many things happened today, that I forgot the details about it. I can't even make a What I did today post 'cause yours truly has a memory capacity of a gold fish. Before writing this post, I felt as if I had so much to write and rant about but the usual happened. All was lost when I started tapping the keys.

11 days

2009-01-11T10:11:00.003+08:00

I don't know where to start. I owe this blog 11 days of entries. That's a lot, including my year ender post, the resolution and daily stuff. I've been doing a lot since I came back here, the duty and schoolwork has occupied some of my free time. Actually I have a lot of free time on my hands, it's just that I love being lazy too much, it has taken a toll on this blog.

I've installed a new JavaScript for post expanders, just in case I want to post a photo-blog type of entry. I sacrificed the code for mass "new window opening links code" for the script. It was a hard decision, but I hope it's all worth it. Now I have to manually put target="_blank" on each link. As you've also noticed, there is a new bear head-bobbing player on the header. I didn't know what to put up there, so I put a player to make use of the space. I noticed the sound gets quite annoying, so I might uncheck the autoplay mode.

I'm going to be really busy in school. It's the midterms season and I need to work on my grades.
Achoo!

2009

2008-12-31T07:38:00.002+08:00

I'm going to welcome 2009 with a sore throat, a runny nose and a temperature of 38C. Hope you're not experiencing this hell I'm in. OUCH!

Keep safe everyone! :)

HAPPY NEW YEAR!

Motorized Hateration

2008-12-29T18:58:00.007+08:00

If you have noticed, a new layout is in front of you already. It isn't THAT great, it's BLAH. The white square in the header beside the pictures is empty as of now, I don't know what to put there. hmmm.

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I never thought I'd see the sun again. It has been raining all day yesterday and I thought the sun would never come out again. It was 24C here in Legazpi and all I only wore a thin sando and short-shorts (LOL), workin' it like the summer sun is out.

The sun came out this noon, that moment made me one happy idiot *points to the picture*. The dark skies made way for haring araw, haring araw gave me a chance to go out and finally go to the mall. I hunted for an apt 2009 planner which looks clean and artistic at the same time. I looked for the CD-R King 35mm toycam too, and the never ending hunt for the red plaid shirt commenced. I came home bringing a Bratsplash Kiwi hand sanitizer, 2 Clearpores and a slinky toy. No planner, no toycam and no red plaid shirt.

It's a so-so day. Happy, because the sun came out. Not so happy because shit happens... everyday. Shit happened because I found out that I wasted a roll of Kodacolor film on my mom's Hanimex camera. I thought only the indicator was broken, but I just figured out this morning that the film isn't rolling. The camera makes a motorized winding sound but the indicator isn't moving. This is a perfect example of an unhappy accident.

Droplet Miserable

2008-12-28T13:21:00.003+08:00

It's been raining all day, and it's not something to be happy about. Actually, I've become quite miserable the first time the plane descended to this damp city. I was hoping - wait make that PRAYING that the whole break will be sunny. Sunny-cloudy could do, but this weather is a NO NO. I had so many plans in mind and I can't believe this wretched weather is ruining all that. I still have two rolls of film in our freezer and I want want want to use them all NOW!

I haven't started looking for things here, perhaps vintage? Or maybe antique ones? I'm on a hunt to look for cameras, outfits, blah blah to use or to display in my room. YES, I am introducing much clutter to my room back in mnla. I remember the Polaroid camera I was playing with when I was a kid, it's useless but it would look oh so damn good on top of my bookshelf. I also found out my grands were big enthusiasts of photography and they own a MINOLTA SLR, which, I found out from my mother, is still functional. I can't wait to have it on the 31st! *shutter happy*

I can't stop looking at lomo and analog shops in multiply. Everyday I go to those shops and browse through the albums just to compare prices and read about these wonderful babies. Right now I'm torned between buying a Vivitar IC 100 and a CDR king analog camera. LOL

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Mom went back to Manila today to finish their annual report. I don't know if she had enough rest this week. She was too busy preparing for her promotion. Well, the hard work was all worth worth it, it's not official yet but I guess it's time to call her MAJOR YUCHINGTAT now. Congratulations Mom on the promotion. :)

Toodle-doo. I'm working on the layout now, finally.

We're The New Face of Failure

2008-12-27T09:06:00.005+08:00

So another Christmas season has finished. Hope you had a great christmas opposed to mine which was so-so and quite sad. Thanks to "teh boyfriend" and his quite puzzling, scratchy call with the words"Meri krismas I lab yuuuu. *cut*"

Good news! I wore a dress last Christmas day, a first. I looked pretty good despite wearing an attire fit for clubbing. I threw in my mom's black cardigan for a little decency. Since I was so full of myself, I forgot to take vanity pictures. I guess that's for the better. I liked the attention and the sneering glances, but at soon as we got home after the mass, I became Pauline the ugly snobby princess again. AHA! Irony! We held a little family photoshoot for the season but the grands weren't so keen with fake poses. We came up with a decent amount of pictures to be proud of.

Christmas day is also my Tito Ton's birthday, so it's normal we don't have noche buenas 12mn. Instead, we hold this big handaan where my tito cooks all these scrumptious, full of carbs, fattening food. As a relative of the host, we get to eat the handa earlier than the guests. My sister and I pigged out on 4 slices of turkey breast, 3 pieces of chicken cordon bleu, a very very generous amount of rice, a slice of my lola's buko pandan ala fruit salad and a can of coke while watching Emma Roberts' Wild Child. Best Christmas? Not really. But it was good.

NEW ALBUMS!

2008-12-26T08:21:00.003+08:00

Since I can't write an entry again, here are the new albums I have upped on my MULTIPLY. ENJOY!

ala PHOTOBOOTH (wannabe)

MORE HERE

The Flight of the Cloud Junkie

MORE HERE

Trippy Lyts - 3am

MORE HERE

and she wrote,

HAPPY HOLIDAYS!

2008-12-24T11:36:00.003+08:00

HAPPY HOLIDAYS EVERYONE!

I hope you will have a blast celebrating Christmas with your loved ones. :)

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I haven't updated as promised. I know, when it comes to these things I just can't encourage myself to write an entry. It's still on my to-do list. But, let's all have a break shall we? It's the Christmas Holidays and we should enjoy it, right right? :)

ENJOY EVERYONE!

and she wrote,

7 Days To Go

2008-12-18T21:57:00.003+08:00

I haven't updated for 5 days already! Too much for promising that I'll write an entry everyday. I'm having writer's block. But then again I'm just going to write about my day and what happened, it doesn't need too much thinking right? You know how writer's block happen right? Its those times when you want to write about so much things, but when you face your monitor, everything dissolves immediately. I've been experiencing it for the past 5 days.

I wasn't able to finish coding the new layout. I have a long list of to-do's but at the end of the day, none of them gets a check in the box. I'm still not finished with my gift wrapping, I still have to clean my room, I have to pack my things and make another long checklist before my 6am flight on Saturday. AND I have to do ALL of that tomorrow. Anyway, back to the layout, as what I said before it'll take a while before I can put it up. I'm starting the CSS code from scratch, hopefully I could launch it in time for the new year.

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Be ready, I'll be writing a really long post with pictures to make it up for the 5 days that have been lost. :)

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Here's a little something for you for the holiday season. It's one of my favorite Christmas music and it has been on my Christmas playlist every year. :)

Have Yourself A Merry Little Christmas - Coldplay

and she wrote,

Too Many

2008-12-13T21:15:00.011+08:00

I made a new layout, finally! HEEHEE. That picture on your left is a sneak preview on what's about to come. It's really simple. I'm minimalistic when in comes to layouts, or in other words, I lost my graphics "madskillz" so I'm stuck at making layouts like these. I made sure I had a big space for my entries so that I could post good Q photos. I'm really excited to put it up but I'm not done with the coding yet. It'll be a while before I put this up. *sigh*

Anyhoo, I've been to DV two times this week. You should never go there during weekends lalo na pag hindi ka sanay. Too many people there, if you want to experience rubbing elbows (and maybe some other body parts ) with people, you should go there. Anyway, I bought a 50P shirt that is oh so adorable. I don't care if it's 50P, what matters is it's a cutest thing I've ever seen in a while. I'll be putting up an outfit if I have time. I already bought gifts for our Christmas party on the 17th and for my friends. And THANK GOD I'm not yet broke this week.

Today was a sunny day. Again, THANK GOD He heard my prayers. Since it was a sunny day, I brought YELL along with me so we could go out and play in the sunlight. I expect good shots to come out from that film! I'm still devastated about my first roll of film.

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CANDY GENIUS -- a set of vanity

_{more HERE}

and she wrote,

major fail for the first

2008-12-11T20:45:00.003+08:00

THE TEST SHOTS HAVE ARRIVED!
more HERE + the story

and she wrote,

Wednesday

2008-12-10T20:04:00.006+08:00

I'm just going to do a very quick post for the sake of updating this. I know no one read this, but whatever, I feel like sharing my day.

I was equipped with tales from yesterday's trip to 168, the good and the ugly. The good, being the wonderful cheap things I found there. MYKA was obviously jelly.
We had a new concept for NCM, Fluids and Electrolytes. I almost fell asleep after the break. Which reminds me, I should get adequate sleep as in right now.
Good news! We didn't have Com Dev. AGAIN this day and tomorrow. Another problem, MYKA and I didn't know where we were going to spend our 4 hour break.
So to make use of our super long 4 hour break, we went to Ever and NBS. I found the best gift I could possibly give my mother. Me thinks she will absolutely love it.
Research was crap, no need to mention that.
During the afternoon break, we bumped elbows with our other group members. GEL showed us a bottle of vodka that is made of heaven. A Cappucino Mudshake. YUM.
Pharma was, so-so.
My wallet has been raided again. I ate too much today. I paid for unecessary things. *sigh* I consider our treasurers robbers. LOL.

I have two exams lined up for tomorrow. Two quizzes for NCM and a prelim exam for Pharma. I have to study, but I'm too sleepy! *sigh*

and she wrote,

Tag-Gipit

2008-12-09T20:31:00.005+08:00

"I had 1k on hand this morning, and now I'm broke. " - My plurk while waiting for the taxi.

It's the day where my mom and I were scheduled to go to DV and shop shop shop (I dunno, what's up with the repeat-the-word 3x thing). I equipped myself with my wallet _{inside is a 20 € bill}, OSY, my candy necklace and my mom's Hersheys bag. I had no plans to buy anything. I promised myself that I will only look and not reach into my pockets to buy the temptations. I now proved to myself that I lack self-discipline.

Upon arriving, we went to the money exchange na nakatago sa gilid ng Annex ng DV to exchange the € to PHP. I had 1.25K then! But at the end of the day, piso piso na lang ang natira. I have to admit I am a major spender when it comes to things I want. This month alone I spent 3k for MY WANTS, excluding the money I spent for my load nakakarami sakin ang Globe. Later that afternoon, my mom tagged me along to go grocery shopping at San Lazaro. I brought my first 110 film (btw, I got my Holga Baby already) to be developed at Digiprint. My stupidity won over me. I told the person to develop the pictures AND scan the film, that's why I spent 269php for the whole transaction.

To be honest, I can't barely remember what things I bought and exactly how much I spent this day. All I know is I had 1k on hand, and now it magically vanished after a day full of shoving, eating and shopping.

PS. I'll post some pictures when I have the free time.

and she wrote,

Loaded

2008-12-07T20:01:00.005+08:00

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WHAT HAPPENED TODAY.
I was finally assigned to ICU! It's a place where you can see a 1:1 patient:nurse ratio. Q15 patients and we were able to work on our interacting "skillz" with the patients. We got to do procedures and such. It was such a nice learning environment.

PS. I'm too tired to write, might update this soon.

and she wrote,

Personality Issues

2008-12-06T18:28:00.004+08:00

_{NLEX, from my K660i}

As the day ends, it's either you're happy, sad or you get the feeling of being in between. What happened today was the third. I'm aware of my personality. I'm somebody that can't be read easily in just one glance. I'm not saying that I have a very "deep" personality, but rather, a complex one.

I'm happy when I'm happy. I'm mad when I mad. In fact, I hate myself for being a person with too much things parading on her small human brain. A big portion of that goes to thinking, "what do people think of me? Do they see me as a boring person? A person who prefers to be alone?" I'm an introvert and an extrovert at the same time. My personality is messed up. I can't talk much about it since I myself couldn't figure out my true personality.

Too much for the drama part.

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WHAT HAPPENED TODAY.
I was assigned in the ward again today with three ped patients. I hate my CI for assigning me in the ward again. I want to experience ER and ICU too. Everybody had their turn, what about me? I hate it when things are arranged alphabetically. *sigh*
It was a sunny-slash-gloomy day. The right day to chill. Too bad for me I was in the ward the whole day.
/ WORLD WAR NTH with "teh boyfriend" again. Nothing new here, it's a normal thing to happen. He was sweet this afternoon, but things got all nonsense as the conversation started to happen. And as I'm writing this line right here, we got into another fight.
It's quarter to 8 and I have search for an EBN about PAIN AND SURGERY due tomorrow. Better start on it now.

and she wrote,

Neat?

2008-12-05T13:02:00.005+08:00

Well, I have many things on my desk as of now. I cleared my desk a month ago, and look how things magically piled up again. I have no sense of organization, a poor trait of mine. A trait which I obviously need work on.

My family has this weird behavior of keeping things, even the useless ones. I seem to have inherited it from my mother and lola, the reason why our house is nowhere near "spacious". It's a death dreamland for claustrophobic people. From old gradeschool books to old receipts, it sure bring the memories back, but please, the clutter it results to is dismaying. If we go on a cleaning spree, it would take us 2 months to "clean" the living room alone. That may even be an understatement.

You may compare my room to a junkyard. It's a hard place to breathe in, literaly. I feel rather squeezed in. There is no room to move at all. Ok, maybe a tiny bit of space where I could dance around, but other than that, no room at all. I lack time to actually focus on revamping my room. Uni work, duties, projects, how could you have time for cleaning your room? Somebody told me to work on it slowly, like arrange my desk for a start. Don't tell me I didn't try.

The problem with me is I don't want somebody arranging my room. Nobody else has a sense of what I actually want, how I want my things to be arranged. I don't want my things to be touched, a strict order of mine to our Ate Rose. Even I can't read myself. I want things to be organized. I can't call it OCD or any other disorders. Maybe I'm just a lazy lazy person.

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This summer, I'm planning to revamp my room. Hopefully I can push through with it. HOPEFULLY.

PROCRASTINATION please.

2008-12-02T21:28:00.002+08:00

I'm having a hard time keeping up with my blogs. I'm really busy these past few days. Yes, even the free days. I have been able to do things though. Today, I lounged all day at the house and went on a movie-marathon spree this afternoon, Atonement, Stardust, Mr. Magorium's Wonder Emporium .

Anyhoo, I might do a full-length blog tomorrow night, hopefully.

Good night me.

Revisiting Film Cameras.

2008-11-29T20:01:00.004+08:00

HANIMEX 35RF. Yes, these are the cameras you saw back then when you were a child of the 90s. It's one of the best things that ever happened since the boom of digital photography. It's called an analog camera, and I'm currently experimenting with my mom's camera. Back then I hated the thought of taking pictures without seeing the result. I remember owning one of these when I was a kid. Taking pictures would always annoy me. Some of the pictures I took back then were either underexposed or overexposed, expressions looked shitty and there was no such thing as delete and reshoot during the retro times. There's always the thought at the back of your head when you're waiting for your roll of film to be developed, "SHIT, some film developing person saw my craptastic ugly 'self-portraits' and my family tree. She's probably laughing at the pictures right now."

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I owned one of these when I was a kid. My first camera, a gift from my Tita Rose from Germany. Back then I didn't know how much "regret" this camera could give me. I used to throw it around, maybe that's the reason why I used this camera only once. My parents didn't but me a roll of film again, 'cause they didn't support my "hobby" back then. "Kids aren't supposed to have photography as a hobby," I bet that's what my parents are thinking. I begged my mom to buy me a roll of film, but she never did. So instead I always imagined it had a film and I would roll the manual lever and click. The lever broke and then the camera became useless. And now, I saw THIS entry selling the same type of camera. The childhood memories started flooding my empty head. I'm planning on raiding my toy box from the past and look for the camera again. Maybe I could get it fixed, and I could enjoy the panoramic goodness of it!

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THIS will be my new addiction. Well, a slight addiction maybe. A Holga Micro/Baby, a yellow one. I'm so excited to recieve the package tomorrow! I think I won't be able to focus on tomorrow's duty. I'm sure I'll be thinking about the package that's waiting for me at home!

Anyway, I'm still learning to love my DSLR. It's been gathering dust there at the top compartment of my bookshelf. LAME OWNER, I know. But I've been forever confined in the 4 corners of this bedroom that the creativity in me started to diminish as days pass by. I don't have an inspiring creative environment. I have to make one soon instead of looking for inspiration. NURSING + PHOTOGRAPHY, whoever thought these two could mix?

DV stuff.

2008-11-29T19:41:00.005+08:00

A little BLUE themed outfit I put up. All from DV mall (go figure what that means) . YES, I'm a big thrift girl, I buy some of my outfits from you-know-where. The outfit consists of Blue wayfarers, Mint necklace, A camera shirt and blue checkered shorts, ALL FOR 440P. I bought the shorts and the shirt on separate dates. I was surprised when I got home and put the outift all together, BLUE! The shirt doesn't fit me right now, it's a bit small for me. I forgot that FREE-size shirts doesn't fit me. But the design of the shirt caught my attention! It's too cute to be missed. I should go on a strict diet, so I could finally wear that adorable shirt!

Just a bigger view of the Mint necklace from the BLUE outfit. MYKA showed me the store where she got her popsicle necklace from. I wanted the same popsicle pendant but the other stocks looked dirty so I got this adorable mint pop necklace instead!

TWILIGHT!

2008-11-27T22:44:00.003+08:00

I didn't really catch the TWILIGHT fever when it suddenly boomed in the teen culture scene. All I knew about it back then was it was a lovestory about a vampire and a girl, I didn't know that it was a "sweet valley high-esque" love story . YES I was curious, so I tried so hard to find the book and 6 months later, here I am empty handed. I stopped looking for the book now, hoping that later, people will forget about it and I will have the chance to actually see it displayed in the bookshelves of some bookstore.

At first I didn't care much about the "fad", but of course people would always get sucked in and give in to things. In this instance, I gave in to reading the damned story. I have read the book already. Well, not exactly the book but an eBook. Curiousity got the best of me so I gave in to reading the eBook instead. In fact I have the whole series in eBook copy. The story was ok. It did disappoint me because there was too much sappy stuff, but yeah, I forgot it belonged to the TEEN ROMANCE section in bookstores. I expected a story more on the Harry Potter level, more on the action and the wonders of being a vampire and the love story would just be secondary.

Exactly, THIS is the point why I am writing an entry about TWILIGHT: I FINALLY WATCHED THE MOVIE with Divine, Leslie and Nicole plus Albert aka Tru, the same "lakwatsa" crowd minus Myka again. I went to the mall with 200 pesos in hand. Good thing I always bring the group fund with me. I know it's not for personal use, but what can I do? I was short on cash and my atm is pretty useless. I think it's ok to use it, just make sure I pay it back.

_{HOW WAS THE MOVIE?} I agree with whoever that says it's disappointing. There was too much CYAN for me. Though the way they introduced the characters were quite well especially Edward and the Cullens and how they sparkle under the sunlight. ♥ ♥ ♥ The blowing wind through Bella's hair scenes were cliche. Instead of being a very powerful and intimate scene, the meadow scene was too cheesy for my taste. I didn't like how the movie was too fast-paced, it could've been better if they inlcuded Alice's description on how to become a vampire. If I was a person who saw the movie first, I would be quite confused on the way how the background story built up. Though my favorite part of the movie was the Bella's Lullaby scene. I can't explain how it made me feel, but it was a very very good scene.

Ok, so much for being a "fake movie critic". I liked the movie, but it could've been much better. I hope they make New Moon a better one. I'll sure be waiting for that one.

_{GOSH, I couldn't believe I made a TWILIGHT post.}

156, coffee and MRT

2008-11-25T17:27:00.002+08:00

Ang dami talagang nursing students ng FEU. We had our orientation this morning at Rizal Medical Center. A BIG hospital, a new environment for me. It's our (including MYKA and DIVINE) first time to have our duty in a public hospital. We were always exposed to private hospitals. Sanay na sa "kain-tulog" routine pag walang patients. Bagong eperience 'to, dagdag cases pa!

Believe it or not, it was only my second time to ride MRT. My first time was when I was 9 with my tita and a few of my cousins. We went to Megamall to buy midnight snacks for our sleepover. Anyway, since our orientation was in Rizal we decided to munch at KFC Crossings. Rode the MRT to Cubao to transfer to LRT. It's true MRT is always crowded. Dyahe ang daming tao. Good thing we found a comfy, spacious spot. We arrived at Cubao then walked to Gateway. Humiwalay kami (Divine, Les and Nicole) sa group kasi we were itching to see if Twilight's already showing na. No disappoinments met, 'cause only our sheer curiosity brought about the thought of watching the film. Ayun, nauwi rin kami sa Starbucks. I got two stickers again! 12 more to go! We found a good spot and started talking about random things. Btw, it was Divine's first time at Starbucks. Nakakatuwa nga eh. She said she always hesitated entering the shop 'cause she didn't know what she'll do. I recommended my all-time favorite Caramel Frapp and she loved it! _{YAY FOR HER! A FIRST TIMER!} ! Thank you for the sticker Divine! We were given free samples of Toffee Nut there. Nagulat na lang kami biglang nag-offer ng tray yung barista with four little cups of Toffe Nut Frapp. Parang nag-venti na rin ako nun, haha. I ordered Toffe Nut Frapp din kasi.

Thank you DIVINE, LESLIE and NICOLE for an amazing afternoon. I knew more about the three of you and I hope we become very very good friends (Divine's an exemption syempre since we're already good friends ). Super tawa lang tayo! Too bad MYKA wasn't with us, I miss her already.

Good Evening

2008-11-24T22:09:00.004+08:00

Last night I was doing this ^.

Tonight, I'm doing nothing.

I finally decided to let go of my second hand 90's laptop which I've been forever in love with. It's resolution and the screen all in it's big square glory. I'm going to give it to my sister who will probably need it for.. things. The 9G memory will only be sufficient for music listening + word processing. BELIEVE ME. I'm not using it anymore 'cause it annoys the hell outta me. I'm going to have to reformat it before I give it to her. This will be my christmas gift to her.

See, I was transferring my files to my USB while watching Pretty in Pink for the nth time. I caught the chickflick fever again last night while talking to Yvette. She was asking me for good movies to rent. Again, the best thing to recommend to girls are chickflicks. I always loved to see Duckie dance to Try a Little Tenderness. I heart him.

WHAT HAPPENED TODAY.

Somebody went missing, and was found again tonight. I had that bad uneasy feeling again. I'm relieved now, but somewhat emotionally tired with what happened.

It rained. Hard. Then flood was everywhere again. After the rain, power was cut off. I had to fan myself while dressing for school so I won't sweat like a pig in a treadmill.

Finished with Module 1 for our eLearning class. I'm so proud of myself for making up to the lost time.

I AM HAPPY COMBUSTIBLE right now. I just checked my multiply. Two PMs, yay! One from Ms. Jennie Castillo regarding the Holga Baby order and Mixthreads saying they will have another batch of Shoot Mo Mukha Mo shirts!

I have to sleep. I have to wake up really early for tomorrow's duty orientation. GAAH, Nursing.

joghurt-erdbeer

2008-11-24T10:34:00.001+08:00

'LO and BEHOLD!

_{My CHOCOLATE STRAWBERRY BAR has arrived from Germany,}

_{I AM SAVED!}

This, I tell you, is made of heaven. The mixture of sweet milk chocolate and sour strawberry yogurt. Tinitipid ko siya. I have another bar of another brand, I won't open it yet. So much for dieting.

Thank you Tita Rose!

it's empty heads day again!

2008-11-24T09:24:00.001+08:00

I never got around to posting long entries that make your eyes water while reading. Maybe it's the lack of interest in things, or maybe, again, because of LAZINESS, my consistent enemy since I started college. I badly want to go back to blogging freely and just let my hands type the splurting thoughts out of my brain, like the 13 year old blogger I was. I fearlessly wrote about anything that I could think of. From sucky days to boy crushes, and ~~FAILING~~ falling in love with two adorable boys and how much it hurt. I really didn't care about the numerous run-on sentences that ran on my 2 year blog.

Though, I now have an idea how I lost my interest in blogging. Circa 2006 and I was so active in blogging. I had this blog that was hosted by Diary-X which, by that time, I thought was the coolest blogsite around. It was my learning ground when it came to CSS, web designing, graphic designing and spontaenous writing. I was so addicted to it that everyday I tried to find ways how to beautify my layout. THEN CAME THE MOST HORRIBLE THING EVER. Diary-x's main server crashed, and everything but the domain was lost. The day I found out that the site crashed was one of the saddest days I've ever had in my life. 2 years worth of writing, memories, layout designs, typing and entries, ALL GONE. I still hoped that they would be able to bring DX to the way it was, but all hope was gone by the end of 2006. And that was when I lost interest in blogging. I got back to blogging in 2007 through LJ, but I wasn't able to maintain it. Then I became boring as hell.

The thought still makes me sad. How I wish I could go back and read all those entries and laugh at how naive and not-grammar-conscious I was. Those entries were very important. They were written at the peak of my teenage years. *sigh* I wish I could still read those entries.

home?

2008-11-22T21:51:00.001+08:00

I think I'm finally going to transfer here.

I've had my fair share of LJ, Tumblr and Xanga. It's about time I try Blogger. It's just that I can't rant endlessly in Tumblr without looking stupid. I feel that it's limited to artsy people (I wish I was one of them). I admit I sometimes write like a 9 year old with all the internet linggos, with what's cool and what's not.

In here, I could be whoever I want to be. :)

new.. again.

2008-05-24T15:57:00.000+08:00

I seriously can't get enough of one blog.

Will be transferring here SOON.

add me up @ LJ: doubledtchdisco

PNDY

2008-05-24T08:44:00.005+08:00

HI MY NAME IS:

Hello! My name is Pauline Yu and I've been breathing earth air since September 2, 1990. I'm a Filipina who is a Bicolano and a Visayan. How? You figure it out. I'm currently on my 3rd year studying Nursing in FEU, batang recto. I have this thing for pictures with crazy color saturations, film photography, analog cameras, indie music, bands, mixtapes and road trips. I don't know what's it called, that "thing", maybe it's LOVE. I'm a retro-baby and I love the 90's. It brings back a lot of childhood memories. From Eraserheads and Parokya ni Edgar to Coke Pogs and Mcdonald's happy meals.

You usually see me armed with my K660i and ETHAN. pointing at the the sky and taking pictures of clouds. Maybe you will see me on the street with my IC100 pretending to tie my shoelaces when in fact I'm taking a worm's-eye view shot. I am just a person who happens to come across a wonderful hobby, photography. No, I'm no photographer. I don't consider myself one, it's a very complex thing to label yourself as one. It doesn't mean you own an expensive DSLR, you're already a photographer. It takes a lot of hard work.

I started with my mother's Canon point and shoot and from there on, she let me explore it until I reached it's capacity for manual functioning. She then gave me ETHAN., for my 18th birthday. A D40 which I never dreamt of owning. Until now I'm still exploring my D40. Too many functions and crazy combinations, which makes experimenting more exciting. Then I heared about lomography, and I hailed film photography superior than digital photography. I was lucky I was able to experience using film in analog cameras when I was a kid. Its a wonderful thing once you hone your skills in this field. I'm a starter and I'm still learning.

So that's it, more film tales, happy/sad accidents and change will happen. It's inevitable, we just have to adapt. For now, I'm enjoying the things I have a thing for... at least I'm happy.